AP Psych Blog!

WOOOOO AP Psychology! I'm actually pretty stoked for this class (although I'll probably get kicked for not doing the summer homework)! Angela Liu said that this would be such an interesting course, and that I should take it because a) science!, and b) it's reportedly hella fun. 

So... my junior year is starting in about 7 hours or so. I'm actually pretty excited for it! I know everybody I've talked to tells me how it's absolute hell and how I'll want to cry and kill myself, but I'm looking forward to the challenge. I'm taking AP Psych, Calc AB, US Gov, and USH, along with HS Physics, SAT Prep, American Lit Honors, and Musical. I'm honestly considering dropping musical though. I really (REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY) dislike the musical that the school has chosen this year. Mr. Buscher showed us the movie version and it's TERRIBLE. I am honestly so annoyed with the choice. We should have just gone with the junior version of Les Miserables. Honestly. 

Victor and Florence are going to college! I'm literally an only child right now, and it does not feel good. Not. One. Bit. To be an only child is to have nobody you can really talk to when you're bored. You can't talk to your parents about girls or pop music or house music or games. First of all, they don't care about those. Second of all, they would rather you discuss how hard you've been working. Being an only child is so boring; however, I'll have a lot of work to occupy my time with. I actually finished my AP US Gov summer essay about 3 hours ago, and I'm feeling a mixture of accomplishment and disappointment. It took me forever to write - it was 8 pages long (yay). However, it was basically regurgitating a shitload of information from We the People, and that is not very brain stimulating. Hopefully I'll get a good grade on it... it would be a shame to work that hard on an assignment that does not require too much thinking and end up receiving an incredibly low score. 

School starts tomorrow! I'm actually incredibly excited for school. I get to see both new and old faces, and it'll be a challenge to not be awkward as hell. I've been trying to leave the comfort zone and begin living! I have a lot of challenges to overcome this year: AP's, doing at least semi-well in MUN, raising my SAT score (everybody else's went up while I was in Baltimore), surviving my homework load, socializing, doing track, etc. 

Speaking of track, I think I'd make a decent leader. I think I'm pretty good at theoretical organizing! I also think I'm fairly good at resolving disputes and that I'm pretty responsible. I managed to survive 5 weeks without my parents (and be one of the more organized kids at Hopkins). Maybe I'll try to become a leader in the track team. I don't know though... I think Brandon and Winston want to run for captain/co-captain, and it wouldn't be fair to take their opportunities away when I have one year longer than them to do stuff. I know that they want good college apps (let's be honest, I do too), and they should have those credentials. I don't really want it for my app though. I really do like the track team. Phoebe, Samuel, Joseph, Joseph, Eileen, Brandon, Winston, Jasper, Wesley, and all the newcomers. They're all great people! The coach really does like us a lot (even though we're really slow overall, sorry team :P), and I think it's great how we put in effort, even though we haven't competed yet. 

I don't know. I'll have to make a lot of decisions this year, and I'm guessing most of them would be tough for the majority of people, much less for a person as indecisive as me.

Goals for this year!
5's on my AP's? (I got a 4 on Biology!)
Straight A's?
Fix my GPA?
Become a half-decent public speaker?
Do relatively well in MUN?
Become a leader in track?
Do a good job in debate club?
Stay on top of all of my work?
Increase that SAT score?
Work hard on SAT II!
Keep in touch with Julius (he's obnoxious at times, but I think he's a really good guy)
Don't tank all of your academics!
Be more involved with the school?
Don't get involved with any drama....

Learn the difference between self-discipline and motivation, and build up self-discipline. I think I did a relatively good job of doing so today. (I HAVE SO MANY GAMES ON MY HARD DRIVE IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY AND I HAVEN'T REALLY TOUCHED THEM IN THE PAST WEEK I'M INCREDIBLY PROUD)

Another odd thing that I realized! We judge others based off of actions, but we judge ourselves based off of intention. For example, if somebody runs a red light, we think "asshole", but they could have just been looking down at a map or something. But if we do the same thing, we don't call ourselves assholes because we didn't intend to, even though we did. Both you and the stranger had the same intention and action, but we judge differently.